Sometimes I wish I could be one of those people that spent hours in a coffee shop, reading or writing or even studying. I don’t think I’ve ever been able to do that. Sure I’ve spent countless hours hanging out with friends but, sitting and being productive has just never happened. I’ve never taken my laptop to work or read book. The only time I’ve really ever sat at a coffee shop alone is when I’m waiting for someone or having lunch. Even then, I’m fidgeting. Not reading, just browsing through crap on my phone or something to that effect.
Well, that’s got to change. I’m coming on my exams in a month and I realize that I need to be able to study outdoors. I need to be able to zone out from distractions and get on with my studying and the best way to do that is to leave my house. I’m going to have to try it this weekend.
I just finished a journal. I bought this A5 200-page notebook in March and it’s already finished. Funnily enough, I realize that over 50% of the journal was used since June. This is when I started to go through a difficult time, with health and personal issues. Work was good but stressful as well. And I wrote about it all in my journal. It felt so good to get it all out at the end of day or whenever I had the time really. I realize I wrote page after page about my thoughts, feelings, and fears. There were days when I wrote the same thoughts over and over again, because that was all that was going through my mind. And all this writing saved me.
People deal with difficult times in different ways. Some people lean on family and friends, some people go to psychiatrist, some people write. At the end of the day, it all boils down to the same thing, opening up, talking, and not repressing your emotions. The perfect word for this that comes to mind is a word I learned was back in school in English Literature….
CATHARSIS – the process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed emotions. (source: Google)
Writing in my journal was cathartic for me… it helped me through days I felt down or scared. It’s a habit I will not give up easily and I’m better off for it.
I’ve been away for a while. Now, I feel like I need a change to my site. I’m thinking about the categories I have and whether I actually need them. What does it matter how I categorise things when all I’m writing about are my thoughts in one way or another. I probably had a plan behind each of these categories. I can’t remember it anymore. I’ve been so busy with work, studies and, life in general, that I really just want to write a blog about whatever I feel or whatever’s on my mind.
Someday, I’ll probably get around to being able to devote more time to writing about something important or, writing stories; creating a blog that would need categories. For now, I’ll just stick to keeping it simple.